...as i grip the floor

-depression thru august and beginning of Sept 2012.
-sept 11 rode the wave of the change in my husband and began surfing on my own.
-1-2 weeds later exaltation fizzled and stress set back in.
- began fighting again late sept and early october.
- a few occurrances of "the threat' in late sept and through october.
- stressful aniversary.
- fighting
- feeling like i want to die again

as this is a very brief synopsis of what has happened, i am giving very little info here.

my general mood today.....staring up into mania as i grip the floor while i cry my soul out.